what a beautiful song.

Jin is officially the most difficult person in the world to shop for/with. Ive had the most difficult day with him where literally everything I picked out or suggested was rebuffed constantly. All he did was say - thats your style - when in fact I wouldnt have worn it if it was the last thing in the shop. In the course of five hours we managed to find one shirt he thought was half decent and a leather jacket, that he actually put on hold for a week so its possible he isnt even going to buy that.
After that we went to Trattoria for an early dinner where Jin ate almost everything and I left the restaurant starving. This followed by mini street/public silent treatment resulted in Jin taking me out for supper tonight and apologising. muhahhaha hes still in the bad books though. I am NEVER going shopping with him again. Seriously.

My camera is coming back today-hoorah! Iv'e gone long enough without it so I'm going to get ready and go and get it. I'll be cam-whoring it up for a while now muhahahah so expect many pictures to follow. I'm also going to be updating my site..thank god! My one and only attempt, before my camera broke, is an absymal one at that. And it's all come just in time for xmas...:)

Jin and I were supposed to wake up at 7am this morning and go down to the secret John Smedley sale we had been invited to. Instead we woke up at 11 and I have a cold coming...grrrrr. I don't even wear that sort of shit but whatever, I could have got some good xmas presents for people.

I watched 'A Mighty Heart' today and thought it was a brilliant film. This story was one of those that I feel should be told but thought it would be hard to portray on film. It wasn't though. I thought it was put together extremely well.
I remember following this story in the papers when it happened and I was shocked and appalled at the outcome. I cannot imagine what Mariane Pearl must have gone through, and pregnant at the same time.
There was a solemn atmosphere when the film ended and as I was waiting for Rita to finish in the bathroom, there were an old Japanese couple walking by me. The man was frail and was being aided by a stick and his wife as he had some trouble with his leg. But he stopped and asked me if I enjoyed the film. (It's rare for a Japanese person to stop you and speak in English, just to make conversation, trust me). We chatted for about five minutes and both agreed the film was important, sad and somewhat heavy. He mentioned how terrororism has affected everyone throughout the world now.
I don't know how or what Im really trying to say about today's events. The film and the conversation with the man, watching him walk away slowly just left me thinking about how much is going on in the world and in people's lives; good and bad. It's incomprehensible to understand how much goes on throughout the world in one single day and what specific actions trigger next. The energy is incredible.

Im starting to get into the Christmas spirit. I was sat in Starbucks this morning and they were playing their latest Christmas CD - which, btw, plays the same old songs every year. How can they possibly make money from this? Anyway, the songs were playing and all I was doing was sipping a hot chai tea latte from a cup that was decorated in snowflakes and snowmen. That's all it took!! Not so exciting.
So now I'm planning on what to get my gorgeous niece Molly for xmas. I already have loads of clothes for her and I even got her a pink baby girl kimono!!! It's so adorable and she's going to look lovely. I'm going shopping at 'kiddy land' later this week. This is the kind of place I dread. I pass it all the time on Omote-sando. Rich bitches with even richer, spoilt, demanding brats screaming 'want, want, want'' at their poor nannies/entourage. It's always an amusing yet nightmare-ish scene. Anyway its the kind of place that has everything you could ever buy for a child so I'm hoping to find some weird and wonderful japanese character to take home and give her. Something like 'Morizo' which is this weird green thing that I have no idea does what or án-pan man'who is a superhero which pulls pieces of his face off to give to kids, only for it to grow back over night. Bizarre!

I'm finally getting my camera fixed. I broke it about three months ago and have just gotten round to taking it to the camera shop which is a ten minute walk from my house btw. It's costing me $120 which I'm not happy about as I have no idea how it broke but it's going to be so nice to have my little camera back. And I have to update my site too!!! Lots of pics to come.

So today I've just come over to Jin's as he's sick. I made him soup and now he's sleeping. I'm going to chill here for the rest of the afternoon then head home around six. I really need to get a new book. I haven't read anything decent in ages! I may stop by the book shop.....

We have had some amazing times. You have been there for me every single time I turned to you. I could always rely on you in times of need. You got me through the bad as well as the good times. You always came to all the parties and made them so enjoyable! All my friends loved you and you loved them. You used to put a smile on everyone's faces.



But recently things haven't been working out. People have said you have influenced me wrongly. You have caused me to do things that I later regret and have to repair. You have physically and mentally abused me. My friends no longer like me mixing with you. They have told me we are no longer fun together. So I have taken this decision to say goodbye. I'll always look on the past with joy and I have no regrets. But it is something I must do. So goodbye my friend and take care. Here's to the goodtimes!!!

you know, when I was working full time I had a routine down that at the time, I was unaware of. I used to read religiously when I was commuting, drink and eat healthily at set lunch breaks and finish the week with the excitement and satisfaction that I had worked my ass off and I could relax and enjoy the weekends.
Now however, I just find myself not eating properly - sporadically more like - drinking crappy, sugary drinks throughout the day and meeting up with different people daily resulting in almost always going for drinks early evening.

Its stopping as off now. My mood has been so deflated the last two days and Im certain its to do with this. Plus I am spending way too much money having so much free time on my hands. It must be boredom. And the city is even getting boring. Too much time is definitely a kill joy no matter what.

I go home in three weeks, for a month. It's going to be great just relaxing in the country and away from it all for a longer period of time. When I come back to Tokyo mid January though I am going to start looking for a full time job.

hahaha i need a job with edina monsoon.....

Tomorrow and Monday are the first two consecutive days off I have had in forever! I have so many things to do. Sunday im going down to Annex for drinks and farewells but Monday Im going all out on a jobs/shopping combination. I need to get my camera fixed. I haven't updated the photo blog I started many moons ago and I really need it fixed in time for xmas etc. If not, I'll just have to go and buy a new one. I also have to pick up two suits I had made. Theyre both single breasted. One, navy pinstripe with really wide lapels, very gangster-ish. It looks really good with a white shirt and this strange purple tie I also picked up. The other is plain black, two button. Theyre both really nice. Im not usually a suit wearer but as I er..'mature' I'm beginnning to get back into the smarter look I discarded upon hitting University.
I also need new jeans, smart and casual. I have my eyes on one or two pairs but with jeans I really have to go in and try a hundred pairs on to find the right ones. I also need new shoes - already picked out- and I'm tempted to buy a black Prada rucksack. Ive had my eye on it forever and I like the simplicty of it. Im also going to make a trip into sidebyside to see what they have :) I need to get things together for my trip home!

Jin and I returned from five gorgeous days in Kyushu and had an argument :( And what I hate most about it is that I am the more sensitive of the two and he doesn't realise it when I'm upset. Im tired of talking to brick walls. I got out of bed and left his house at 12.30am last night. I don't like hostile environments/vibes so I got out of there. We haven't spoken today at all and now its that weird, not speaking phase. I hate this.

Kyushu however was perfect. The weather was over 20deg. for most of it. Days were spent lazing (literally), travelling and onson's (hot springs). Iv'e never spent more time horizontal!! Kyushu is beautiful. It's so hilly and green and very tropical! It was nice to get out of the madness of Tokyo. Walk down a busy Kyushu street, which was actually empty as I'm used to the madness of this place. And there wasn;t a neon sign in sight!

I'm officially on mute now til I go home.